Saturn & the Sun. 

Lately I’ve been oscillating between opening up and crawling back to a silent vacuum. Opening up, for me, is proof that there is some fight left in me. The fetishisation of the light at the end of the tunnel, if you will. But a part of me has been seeking refuge behind denial, again. I’ve…

Support system 

My downward spiral was interrupted with flash floods; while my mind was silently pivoting to a bottomless pit of apathy and agony, the world around me decided to crash in, taking down people I love with it.  I watched. We watched.  This time it was different. We didn’t speak. None of us said “don’t cry”,…

Whispers of death. 

Tonight I’m inconsolable.  I’ve been shielded by deadlines and to-do lists for far too long. And tonight, it’s all catching up on me.  I’m reminded that there’s no one I could run to – smothered by the void around me.  I’m reminded that my absence makes no impact – much like my presence I’m reminded…