Writing as Anika: 03.Crimson tears.

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Its better now,

I get little sleep.

By little sleep I mean I fall asleep roughly every 36 hours,

for half an hour.

He’s here, he’s here, he’s here.

Its happening all over again.

That’s when I wake up,

cold sweats and no breath;

just like that  i’m broken all over again.

I used to fight it – i fought sleep,

but my  the body got weary – the body shut down.

But the mind on the other hand…

I need a distraction, I need to breath again,

I need to snap out of the nightmare,

I need to be here and now,

I need to be here now.

I drag the caucus of my soul in front of the mirror,

I take a blade from the the table beside.

I draw it across my right wrist – vertically,

Just enough to feel, just enough to be back here and now.

Come morning, the wounds dry.

I adorn my wounds with multicoloured wrist bands,

no one knows,

no one can know,

crimson tears are not meant to be shown.

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